Not in order.

It's already 2011. I am totally looking forward to this year. I am making everything about myself. ( I kinda already do that..pretty much) But I always heae people say that ..."this is the year of ME" Lol whatevers.
But for reals yall..this year I really am gonna focus on myself. I've got some issues that I need to deal with. My brain is the major thing, I am literally nuts. I can't do anything, my ADHD/bipolarcraziness is taking over my life. And I dont mean that in an awwwww you poor thang...I mean it in a damn wtf why do I let this control my life kinda way. I am on meds and I still am a super unorganized, forgetful, airheaded can't finish anything kinda girl. Anyone have any advice to make my adhd go away? Maybe a website or even better an iphone app? (apps control my life) (obviously not well)

And is there any way maybe possibly this is all in my head? Maybe I forget stuff by choice? And I cant think straight because I dont want to? Am I forcing myself to ruin my life and I dont even know it? Is there an app to find out?

OMG I'm watching the Flintstones movie and never realized Orson from desperate housewives is Freds boss. Anyways...school starts in a week and I should probably get my ass in gear ...considering I will be taking 20 hours this semester...and working my full-time job. Does that sound insane...I THINK SO. Maybe I'm just whiney and it really isn't gonna be that hard. I can obviously handle it.
Yabba dabba DOOO.


Oh and another thing, I have started a diet. Like a real one. Not one of those ones where you work out...but just eat 1200 or less calories a day. HARDEST THING EVER. I track my calories on my Iphone cause my iphone controls everything in my life. Where would I be without that thing...I have an alarm to wake me up in the morning, to remind me to grab my purse, to take my medicine, to do stuff at work. yadddy yadda...theres an app for everything. And the diet app that I am using is MyFitnessPal. Love it, it tells me what I'm gonna weigh in a few weeks if I eat like I've been eating. I like that.

P.S. I went to my friends kids birthday party yesterday, aka cake and ice cream. I didnt put that on my tracker cause I'm a big FAT LIAR to my fitness pal. But we are pals, it will be ok.

AND BY THE WAY....This bird and fish thing lately is freaking me out to a point that I cant even research it. AND I literally research everything. WILD.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

I'M BAAACK FOR REAL!!! PROMISE!

Short n sweeeeeet and no point ...heyyyy

Wow oh wow..have I actully been busy. I dont even think I could sum my past few weeks up in one post...

School..School...School
Thats what my life consists of at all times...I dont even have time to get laid (ill blame it on that ok)

And technically I've become pretty facking boring. Im not even fun anymore (SIIIIIKE)...but when I get a chance I dont even want to go anywhere. How superlame..whats up couch potato..right??

I had a birthday a few weeks ago...26...yah...I'll talk about it later.

Anyways...Random ramble..

Do you ever have one of those moments when you feel like you are looking in on your life and you're not really in it? It's a show...and you're watching it and you're all like ...seriously.

The saying "OUT OF MY MIND"
yup thats me....
I'm just lost...
It's not like I'm depressed...I'm very happy no doubt..but I just need something..don't know what. But I'm looking for shit...

Back to school fool :)

I used to get soo excited about school starting. Back when school was fun...

Problems I had ...

Who am I gonna sit beside at lunch?

What bag of chips am I going to buy for "snack"

Recess...should I read goosebumps or play red rover red rover?


Where am I going to ride my bike to after school?

HOLY SHIT...spelling test every friday??

Does that bitch have the same trapper keeper as me?

Alphabetical order?

Pencil pouch or pencil box?

NEW crayons



Things just arent that simple anymore...

Yesterday..I headed out to the local walmart to pick up some school supplies ..notebook paper and notebooks, basic shit.

And a PLANNER..because my goal is to be extremely organized this semester because if I dont get straight A's I'm pretty much screwed.

I fill up my buggy with all my shaat..and head to the checkout..
And for some dumbass reason the planner I wanted was recalled...the cashier named Matt could have explained that. But no he wanted to just throw it in his bin under the register and say I CANT SELL THIS TO YOU!!! So I'm all smartass'd and say BUT IM 21?? he said no .. I really cant sell it to you. Why not Matt?? Because it's recalled. But its a notebook? I'm not gonna choke on it? Are you just having a bad day matt?? No...I'm not selling it to you. MATT...I need to talk to a manager you are RUDE. No I'm not MAM. Yes you are MATT. You are being horribly rude to be and you are not friendly at all..and if you work at walmart its part of the damn job. This went on for about 6-7 minutes until I was done being mean to him. I don't know what got into me. My friends thought it was entertaining...and I think they are sorta scared of me now..cause they know I dont take shit.

First of all..

I am here with breaking news......

Me and Dr. Fingerbang are over. I went in the other day..and he just had the biggest attitude and Im just not dealing with that. If he wants to call and apologize ..Im willing to give him a second chance. U g h

And another random thought...I know I'm extremely friendly..and I talk to more people than I should..about things I shouldnt talk to them about..but hey thats what makes me the bomb...well at least the lady in wendys drive thru thinks that i guess. When I get wendys for lunch ..I go to the same one down the street every time. Same girl has worked there since ive been up here in the hood...blah blah blah

Yesterday going through get my spicy chicken sandwich with just cheese and lettuce:

ol girl: that will $6.something

me: here ya go...how are you today?

ol girl: im good..ready to go home

me: i hear ya ..me too (i never have cash..takes a second for my debit to go through..it gets denied alot)

ol girl: oh shooot girl let me tell you...my ol man got a job

me: thats good to hear...can i get some extra ketchup

ol girl: but i tell you what...he been actin all fishy since he got his first check

me: uh oh thats not good..who are you again???

ol girl: mm hmmm...ever since he got that first check he be acting like he aint gonna be paying no bills..well I tell you what..his cell phone gon be cut off by the end of the day if I dont see some of that money

me: oh goodness...you did tell them no tomato on my spicy chicken right?

ol girl: mmm hmm thas right you better ba'lee dat. no man gonna mess with me like dat. Ill be getting some of that check.

me: i hear ya girl...welp see ya later

ol girl: byeee hun!!

Random, Useless Thoughts..You're welcome!

Ok I think it is time for me to give my input on a few things going on throughout the world today....

Let's start of with the most important...of course.. LiLo. Lindsay Lohan. We all know she got sentenced to 90 days in the slammer yesterday..for doing what? Not sure. I think it is because she is a crackwhore. Maybe. It was a very emotional time yesterday at the courthouse..she cried a lot. Her friends were interviewed and said they havent seen her cry like that since "last call" at the bar last night.

HEAT- yah its hot...really facking hot. Every year it seems to be record breaking highs. Such a good little conversation starter though..."damn its hot out there isnt it" I say that to everyone that walks into my office..and continue to tell them I have my little space heater on under my desk because my footsies are cold. Not funny to them.

The oil spill- no comment...the reason why I say no comment is because I dont understand it. If it can be explained please do Mr. BP

The new Twilight movie- Not sure which one it is. But its all over the news and consumed my facebook timeline for quite some time. People are still talking about it..my mom read the books and told me what happens at the end of the last book. Im good to go, and willing to ruin it for whoever wants me to.

Ok I'll shut up...buuuuuuuut
I must comment on Jake and Vienna.
I never watched the bachelorette or bachelor whichever one they were on. But I watched that interview the other night where they talked about their breakup. and boy oh boy did I notice how mature my breakup with doggydaddy was. seriously...i would so totally have made something up and say that was the reason they broke up..I cant believe ABC allowed that show to be on air. I was waiting for the principal to come in and give them redslips, detention, and call their parents.

NUFF SAID
(for now)

I'm here...and by the way..are your parents strict? I need a place to stay this weekend

Ohh hey yall hey...wondering where I've been? pshh havent we all. I've been going through some mental issues..but as of right now I'm stable. It was touch and go there for awhile..and I could have quite possibly done things I'm not aware of. No..really. I honestly think I have had a mental breakdown on the inside..and it hasn't come out to the outside yet. Ok thats me whining.

I went to the beach last week...which was a much needed time away from my real life. Down there was just pretend life ..and I got to spend a lot of time with BB. And I also got a pretty kick ass tan...and a little bit of burn. The day I got burnt I walked around the condo telling people I had the flu...so they would feel sorry for me and my burn. How sad. I just wanted an aloe rub down from the pool boy ;) There wasnt one though. Fuck.

On another note..I've started a weight loss competition kinda deal with my friend...she lives in tennessee..so the deal is ..whoever loses has to fly out to see the other one. I've gained 10 fucking pounds since we started. I'm officially a member of cheapflights.com now. damnit

But the very important thing I would like to talk about is my new obsession. Pretty little liars. This show is great. Not sure what it is about the show but I am addicted..I even went and got the books. Havent read them yet...but I have them.

Part of the reason I may like this show is because it makes me feel like a freakin teenager...and who doesn't want to feel like a teenager? Being a teenager was my favorite time of my life. I mean hello Z24.

My sister had her 10 year class reunion this past weekend...and seeing her with all of her old friends really makes me miss my old friends and how much fun we used to have. Damn.

Being a stoner and an alcoholic at the age of 16 was so cool. Seriously..we had so much facking fun ...half the stuff I do now doesnt even come close to being that fun.

Isnt it weird how every group of friends has that one friends house that they can stay at and do whatever they want. I loved those kind of friends. I actully looked for friends like that. I was such a fuck up.

I am literally just rambling...maybe next post will be more interesting. ;)

P.S. Remember when I talked about my tanorexia...I had it in that picture. Triple dog dare you to guess which one I am!!! Badass...I know